So.. we have been home together for so long, the days, weeks, months, are flying by. I cannot even fathom that it is almost the middle of May. We have 2 more weeks of school remaining.
Wow! School is trucking along, work is busier than ever, more demands than ever, sales are up 80%+ because people are cooking at home, and cleaning a lot more. (our essential products) 🙂
But, the days run together, it’s getting more difficult to be creative in meal planning for the kids. I am running out of steam. I am trying my best to stay pumped up, and not fall into the “depths of despair.” (A quote from my favorite movie, Anne of Green Gables…I just might need to watch that again. it’s been a while)..
Anyway, I have let the kids be on electronics far more than I want, and we’re all doing OK. No one is dying.. no one is saying they’re bored. no one is asking to go anywhere.. I am the only one who wants to get out. even after all this time of being “stuck” at home, they are still doing just fine. Kids love being home. They love their toys, making forts, watching movies, going for simple walks in the neighborhood, and receiving pizza from the local pizza place down the road. They love the quarantine life.
So, I have to say, I’m very thankful for that!!
The crazy parts I tend to leave out:
when they spill things on the carpet, almost daily. mark up the walls when they try to drag a huge box up the stairs, so they can make a car to “ride” in. when they ask for sugar all day long. when they fight during zoom meetings, when someone gets their feelings hurt, and they cry for no good reason. when someone whines because they don’t get their way. when I hear sassiness in the background between siblings. when someone sneaks snacks and hides the trash under the couch, and I find it days later. when it’s bedtime, and 2 little boys sneak a chromebook in their bed, and they try to get away with staying up late. when the children decide that I’m invisible, even though I’m clearly giving loud instructions on what I need them to be doing. when it’s chore time, and I hear nothing but complaining, and them telling me, they’re not my slave.. when I say Mother’s Day is coming, and they say that they don’t have enough energy to do anything for me. (sigh.. ) when I am doing all things for them, and it goes unnoticed. ALL of these things can wear a person down if you let it. I CHOOSE not to let this stuff drag me down. Instead, I focus on the positive daily. I am choosing my battles, and am continuing to guide the children the way that I know is right. They will learn, they are teachable, and they are lovable. They are even loving!! But, behind all the nurturing, kindness, calmness, within this momma, there is crazy. I want to pull my hair out, stomp my feet, and run around the house like a crazy person, screaming. ugh!! But, I must keep my cool, and be the rock and example my children need.
I am simply just sharing my thoughts here.. mainly for a journal to reflect on later, after this quarantine time is in the past.
Hindsight is 20/20…
But, in the moment, right now.. i want to remember.. how I’m feeling, what I’m going through, what the kids are doing, and never forget how this time has made us grow closer, fight more, work out our problems more, learn to communicate more, be more responsible for ourselves, be mindful of others, appreciate life.. just being..
All in a Day 