It’s been a few days since my last entry.
I took a brief vacation to Vegas, while my dad kept the kids. That week of the trip was crazy, but it was sure nice to have that breather when I did. I came back feeling refreshed and ready to tackle the week ahead.
We are at Wednesday now, and so far it’s been full, but good.
It’s Parent / Teacher week, we still have karate, my oldest started counseling today, and there’s the quick trips to the store for the school V-Day parties tomorrow.
I also have the 3 younger ones in counseling, as previously mentioned. I met with the counselor alone yesterday. He provided quite the insight for me on what I’m dealing with when it comes to the boys.
I had absolutely NO idea just how much damage there has been to these boys. Their dad was not acting as an adult when they were in his care full time, prior to the divorce. I knew that part, I just didn’t know how it would impact their future, like it is. He charted it out for me. Showed me that their dad was lazy, didn’t work as a team player, played video games, didn’t take responsibility for his actions, and didn’t participate or try to do his best at things. Austin had done a self evaluation earlier that day, and I shared it with the counselor. He lined them up side by side, and it dawned on me that my little Austin has the same exact line up as his dad. BUT, the counselor reassured me that my kids will NOT end up like this. They have me, the counselor, their teachers, and all the support of family to prevent this. He says we are mopping up the mess that was created over 4 years ago. It’s hard work, but we will succeed. I just broke down crying in our meeting, because I never looked at things that way, and OMG! I would have acted much sooner, if only I had awakened from the ridiculousness that was making me stay. I felt it was the right thing to do. Now, my kids are paying the price.
While they are angry with me about the divorce now, mostly Autumn, he said that would eventually shift to him, as they get older.
For instance, they take their piggy bank money to his house, because they know he needs $$$$.. Eventually, they will realize that he’s in this situation because of choices he made. He didn’t grow up.
I love my kids, I want the best for them, in all areas of life. They don’t appreciate my efforts now, but I sure hope one day, they look back, and say, WOW! I don’t know how my mom did that…
All out of love… All out of love…
All in a Day 